I DID NOT KNOW WHO MY ANGEL WAS.

BY 8,IWASTOLD ABOUT MY ADOPTION.I ALREADY NEW.HOW?NOT EASY TO EXPLAIN,BUT HERE GOES.I HEARD MY MOTHERS THOUGHTS,HOW .I HAVE NOT A CLUE,JUST SUSPICIONS,IN LOGIC.BY 11 I HAD FIGURED OUT MY REAL NATIONALITY,A PROCESS OF ELIMINATIONS AND COMPARISONS.LOTS TO EXPLAIN HERE..LATER.BY 14, I FELT I WAS FOOLING MYSELF,A DIVE INTO SUBMISSIONS LAID ON ME TO WRECK MY LIFE.BY 21 IWAS LOST IN FEAR AND RUNNING FROM REALITY AS IT WERE.BY 30 I LEARNED I WAS RIGHT AND COULD NOW REFLECT ON THE PAST WITH GREATER INSIGHT.I AM NOW SEEING THE TRUTH BEHIND MY FANTASIES,NONE WERE  A FANTASY THEY WERE ALL REAL.ON TOP OF IT ALL,IT NOW ALL FIT INTO PLACE.MY WHOLE I HAD FOLLOWED WITH UNNATURAL TRUST THE IMPLUSE OF MY MOTHER,BEING ASTRANGED FROM MY FATHER.BUT NOT THE WOMEN I CALLED MOM,MY BIRTH MOTHER WOH I HAD NOT EVEN MET ...YET,BUT WOULD...SOON